6 weeks post partum - 12/10/98

Well, I went in today for my 6 week post partum check up and I guess it finally struck home that my surrogacy journey is officially over.   After all this time, it is kinda strange to not be actively pursuing this dream any longer.  Kinda sad actually....not because I miss the babies or even because I miss Scott and Bev...more because I miss the excitement of it all. One thing I can say about my surrogacy experience...it was definitely never dull! Don't get me wrong...I'm not saying that life is dull now, but, it was quite exhilerating to be a part of something so special, even during the more "challenging" moments of the process.

So, anyway, when my dh got home, I casually told him about my doctors appointment and mentioned that Dr. H. jokingly asked if I was ready to do it again.  I told the doctor (quite seriously) that I would love to do it again, but, that my hubby said no. Then Joey surprised the heck out of me with the words, "Actually, I am sort of leaning toward yes!"  I couldn't believe it!!  We chatted about it for a few minutes and he sounded very positive about me doing another surrogacy!  Of course, we need to talk about it some more and make sure he is *really* ok with it...but, there is plenty of time for that. If I become a surrogate again, it wouldn't be for about a year, as I want to give my body enough time to heal from the c-section and the "trauma" of carrying twins.  I am just so excited that he is even considering the possibility, though!  Yippee!

On another note, I talked to Bev earlier.  Baby Scott is up to 6 lbs 2 oz and Madeline is up to 6 lbs 10 oz.   She says Madeline is a "high maintainence" baby and required alot more time than Scott does.  Both just switched to soy formula as they were having trouble digesting the regular. Other than that, all are well...Mom and Dad are just really tired!  :)  I had to laugh...I was talking to Scott (aka. Daddy) and he just went on and on about how, "even if you are not *with* the babies at any given point in time, you are always doing something *for* the babies!"  LOL! He wasn't complaining though!  In fact, he sounded quite giddy about it!!! :)   I mentioned to Bev that I was thinking about becoming an SM again and she couldn't believe it.  She just kept saying, "I can't believe you are willing to go through it all again".  Then she said that she thought it was great that I wanted to help someone else, but, that she kinda liked having me all to herself.  Then Scott (in the background) said, "She can do it for us again!!!!"  :)  To be honest, I hadn't really thought of that, but, I guess I could if they wanted to.  They still have 14 embryos left...We'll see what they say in a year! 

Oh, one last thing...my 6-week check up went great!  Everything seems to have migrated back to it's old location.  :)  It was great to see the dr. and his staff again.  He is such a great doctor...always takes time to sit and chat and genuinely cares about his patients.  He gave me a hug and told me how happy he was to have been a part of our surrogacy.  So sweet!  :)  I told him we felt the same way about him!