My DH and I have recently been through a late miscarriage of our son through surrogacy. He was actually supposed to be born this week, April 27. So needless to say, this week has been particularly difficult.
Now on the positive note, we have matched with another GC. She is so sweet and just a real gem. LOVE HER! You can hear her excitement through her emails and text messages. We are tentatively transferring mid to late June. I'm trying soooo hard to get excited, but I am so terrified of being hurt again. I don't want to talk about this journey with anyone in fear of jinxing it. I don't want to allow myself to feel. It's not intentional, more of a survival mechanism. Has anyone ever felt this way? How do I overcome it? It actually took me weeks to post this message here. I finally built up the courage. I want to feel that excitement all over again and enjoy this journey, rather than live each day worrying!