I haven't known you long but from what I have seen here you are just a shining example of what a surrogate should be! I'm sad for you about the forced retirement but I think you are seeing the positive to it and that is awesome. As time goes on and you heal even more I think you might be able to see even more positive things.
You ended your surrogacy story on a wonderfully good note! Hooray for that!
And thank God for skilled medical personnel who very likely saved your life and the babies' as well.
One day at a time, friend.
Good luck and please stick around and help teach us new surrogates what it is all about!