So I delivered the girls a little over 6 weeks ago. I go for my 6 week check up tomorrow. Lately I've been thinking I might have some post partum depression. Not sure...
I'm not "depressed", like I can't get out of bed in the mornings, or I don't want to clean the house. I don't feel sad or empty.
But...lately I am so irratable. And most of it is directed at my kids, (which I'm sure is because I'm a stay at home mom and a mostly single mom, as my SO works out of state) so I'm mostly around my kids. I also feel like I have no patience. I'm also having some trouble sleeping.
I plan to talk to my OB tomorrow and see what he says. Not sure if its just a hormonal thing. I've never had these kinds of feelings before. I don't know if its related to the stress of the early delivery, the c-section, or just a combination of everything.
I have a really hard time even admitting these feelings. Having to admit PPD feelings in some ways makes me feel like a failure in some ways. Also its hard to admit these feelings following a surrogacy. The way I feel, in no way has anything to do with me missing the babies. I have not and still do not have any kind of attachment to them.
I'm coming here to share this in hopes of finding support, as I'm sure some of you ladies have experience with this. Any advice or words of support would be greatly appreciated.